Just got of the phone with MFI Dr.'s nurse and we are all set up with mTESE and IVF in March (the mTESE series is from 3/9 to 3/26).
I am so excited to move forward and praying they find lots of sperm (lots to freeze) and we get some great embies (and some frosties). Soon I will get the package with millions of pages of paperwork for DH to sign off on and then we go to IVF class.
I'm also scared, this is our 1 shot, it's costing us around $36,000. (we have insurance but have to pay opp and then we'll get reimbursed 70% for IVF portion, about $9000, DH's procedure is not covered at all)
God please let this work!!!!
Did I mention that I am scared? I'm so scared and conflicted by all of this. In the end it is our only option (other than a miracle) and I so wish it didn't come down to this. We've known about the NOA for about a year and a half and I still can't believe it. How did we get here? Why can't we just have fucken sex and make baby? I wish there had been a gradual progression, you know, like first we tried, then we moved onto IUI and then IVF. It just seems like we missed a bunch of steps.
I feel like there are two halves of me and it is difficult to reconcile them. The excited, positive, ready to move forward wormette who is just revving to go and the scared, anxious, unsure wormette who feels like we just jumped a few spaceson a board game without collecting any prizes.
Please keep us in your prayers, thoughts, etc.
God please let this work!!!!
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I'm praying for you!!! Remember...It just takes one. I was ready to give up and now I'm so thankful I didn't!
Hugs,
Christine
The other Inconceivable.
I am so excited for you. After all you both have been through, you deserve this so much. The prayers start now!
PS... now we really are cycle buddies! ;)
Thoughts and prayers!! I'll be following and praying through the whole cycle.
I just found your blog weaving through the IF blogosphere. Just wanted to say that I found your post very powerful. I understand that emotion...let it work, let it work, please let it work. It makes things so difficult when so much is riding on the process financially and emotionally. I wish you the best of luck!
How exciting!!! Praying for a sticky BFP!
I am SOOOOOOOOO excited for you! It's about time to make 2009 a great year!!!!!!
I'm so so SO excited for you. We just finished our cycle with mTESE with a BFP! On our first try! Remember to relax, I a suggest a lucky talisman to get you through! I have a turtle hanging in my car and DH has his lucky $2 bill!
On another note, have you looked into whether your insurance company will covered uncoded procedures? That is how we received pre-auth for our mTESE. I'm still waiting for the EOB's though.
Scary and exciting all at the same time. I'll keep you both in my thoughts.
I so hope this is it for you guys! My fingers, and toes, will be crossed for you.
WooooHooooo! I'm so excited for you. It's a scary feeling I know (as I still haven't called to get any ball rolling on this)...but here's to hoping you get to change your blog name to 'Conceiveable!'
:-)
Oh I'm so happy for you guys. You are in my prayers and thoughts for an easy and successful cycle.
I'm actually doing egg retreival tomorrow and I know exactly how your feeling. PLEASE GOD LET THIS WORK. I'm excited and nervouse and I feel for you! I will pray for you and your hubby and your future babies. Power in prayer.
But I have to say your comment about "can't we just have fucking sex and make a baby" I can't tell you how many times that exact sentence has gone through my head.
March is SO soon!!! I am keeping everything crossed for you, hon!
You are in my prayers every single day -- I am so excited for you guys!
By the way, I tagged you (x2) on my blog if you're bored. :)
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