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Here's some random facts about theworms

I love to dance and will do it anywhere, anytime, to any music.

Some of favorite movies of all time are The Prin.cess Bri.de, Lo.ve Actu.ally, Mou.lan Rou.ge, Star Wars and Dir.ty Dancing.

I love to watch people dance and that's why I love SYTYCD and DWTS.

I love the beach and the sounds of the ocean, a trip to the ocean always clears my soul.

I love to read and will read just about anything.

I get very annoyed when books are made into TV shows or movies and they change shit around. I'm a book purist.

So, when you comment feel free to tell me some of your fav's.

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So, I'm officially PUPO and honestly I have been scared out of my mind for the last couple of weeks. I have never felt so anxious and it's at the point I'm having trouble sleeping.

I am terrified of another m/c.

I know we know about clotting disorder and I'm on lovenox and doing intralipids but I am sometimes filled with such fear that I start sobbing.

God, please let this work.

We transferred 2 very pretty expanded blasts (according to embryologist) and one had started hatching out. They were frozen on day 5.

I asked RE if these were first 2 thawed and he said that if any had been lost they would have told him. So he's assuming I still have another 2 on ice. I will email head nurse next week to confirm.

My other nurse came in while my butt was in the air and we went over my calendar and she said I would need another intralipid infusion the friday after + beta. She also said she talked to Dr. T and will be giving me infusions every 2 weeks instead of 4 because of our prior loss and because she likes us so much :) She says I only do it for my special patients.

so here's a pic of our blasties :) (sorry it's so dark, I used camera phone)

The one on left expanding out is a girl according to D b/c she's an overachiever like her mom.

and in other fun times, yesterday was my cousin's wedding and we had to do 3 shots at 10:30pm :(

D, my bro and I came up with a elaborate plan to do my shots. At around 10pm we put the shot plan in motion. DH got me cup of ice from bar, I dropped it into ziploc in my purse and headed to the ladies room. I iced my stomach and gave myself lovenox injection. I then opened therm.acare and put it on my butt.

I went back to table and we waited about 15 minutes to have therm.acare heat up and then got my bro. Our original plan was to do shot in bridal suite and it was locked and we needed a staff person to open it who wouldn't open it w/o bride's permission. So my bro tells my cousin that I need to give myself a shot and DH needs to do it and can we use bridal suite, she says yes and tells staff person to open room for us (so much for not telling her anything).

So we go to suite and my bro stands guard and DH gives me my 2 butt shots. He was so nervous about someone coming in and needing room, that he did them super quick :( it hurt a lot and didn't get my usual post-shot butt massage. I was also bleeding from both sites and with the gauze the therm.acare wouldn't stick so didn't heat afterwards.

We left bridal suite and I sat down for a while but eventually I needed to party! (didn't I mention I love to dance) So of course i started dancing and that was not smart move, I got really awful cramps and then IBS episode :(

By the time we got home I was still having episode and crying in the bathroom and praying that I didn't do anything to hurt our little worms. I really hope everything is ok. I'm still crampy today and so nervous I fucked everything up :(

Why can't any of this be easy?