Hello ICLW'ers. Thanks for stopping by.
Our journey is to your right :)
A couple of updates.
We're still having some good and bad days. Father's Day was not pleasant.
My period is MIA, I'm on cd 48 and of course I get those little feelings that maybe it is a miracle. I POAS and of course it was a BIG FAT -
Hope can be such a four letter word sometimes.
It's also bringing me much anxiety. I have clockwork cycles and since the failed IVF, AF has been all over the place and now I'm starting to think there is something not right with me :( I don't want any more obstacles, I just want to move forward.
Last weekend we talked to a couple of friends of ours about our journey and moving forward. It was a great conversation. She is a LSW and he is a psychologist and it was great for DH to open up about his feelings and they left him with a lot of things to think about. He did have a breakthrough moment and it was great to see.
We've mailed out all the ds paperwork and all that is left is to pay for the gizz. It will be frozen at cryo.bank and they will deliver directly to clinic when we start IUIs. We're still not sure when that will happen but we're working on it.
DH and I have planned our vacation and CANNOT wait. We're taking a cruise from LA to Mex.ico and then flying to Vegas for a few days. It is going to be so nice to get out of this space and just relax. I have to say it is so hard for D and I to be in our home. We bought our home and hoped it would be a placed where we would have our first child and now it just makes us sad to be here. I want to move but unfortunately am stuck b/c of a residency requirement :(
Oh, and I also wanted to say how touched I am by the emails I get from blog readers. I feel so honored that people read this depressing blog and when they take the time to write to me, I get warm fuzzies. Although I hate being on this journey it makes me feel so touched that others find some comfort or feel less alone b/c of this blog. Thank you and ((HUGS))
Oh, and I am happy tr.ue blood is back. I love my fanged friends :)
Thanks to MelissaG for the Honest Scrap award - I appreciate it :)
I'm going AW for a second - I'm up to 41 books already! I think I'm going for 70 instead of 50 :)
and I'm down 10 lbs.
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So so SO jealous! Have a great vacation!
Have a great vacation...that sounds fabulous! I can't wait for you to start your IUIs! Good luck, my dear!
You'll have a blast on your vacation! When are you going!
Good luck with everything. I, too, am so glad to have this supportive neatwork of IF "friends," I don't know how I'd cope without it!!
~Michelle (ICLW)
Your story is not depressing...your story is one of survival and strength and the ability to keep putting one foot in front of the other despite one million obstacles.
You'll reach your goal too.
I'll be reading when you do. :-)
Your vacation sounds like it is going to be a blast. I'm jealous.
By the way....everytime you mention the 'gizz' I laugh so hard I snort. A bit 7th grader-like, sure. But that is me.
Great job on the weight loss...
This is a crazy journey. I hope that the vacation is here quickly and you enjoy every second!!!
My periods are totally screwed up after 3.5 IVFs and everything else I have been through. It is stressful after being a 28 day girl to being a 45 day girl, then a 20 day girl......
Hey there...will tell you what...Good Luck!
And have a gorgeous vacation. Yay for the weight loss and best wishes for the IUI.
ICLW
Hi, so nice to meet you with ICLW. I am so sorry your journey is so difficult, i can only imagine how upsetting it is for your DH and it's great that you have such good friends that help him open up. I wish you all the very best for your DIUI, your home will be full of baby laughs one day, believe it. Love, Fran
*ICLW*
I've always had super messed up periods. Sorry to hear you are too! I will keep you guys in my prayers though.
Also have a great time on your cruise. I bet it will be so beautiful!
Hi! It's nice to "meet" you, another azoo couple. Sometimes I feel like a minority in the DS world, surrounded by SMBCs and lesbian couples. We were "lucky" to be spared even the possibility of having a child genetically tied to DH... sort of like ripping off a bandaid, I suppose. As soon as we knew we had a problem, it was an absolute and complete problem with no middle ground. It was DS or nothing for us. We both want children so badly that it wasn't difficult to accept that DS would be involved. I'm sorry that you two have been through the wringer with respect to what can and cannot be done. It's a loss, and there's no denying the pain.
I'm happy for you to have decided to continue your TTC efforts in spite of everything. Have a wonderful vacation, and best of luck with the IUIs!
I know exactly what you mean about the house thing. We bought a 4 bedrm house right when we started trying to conceive. What a slap in the face when those 3 bedrooms remained empty. Sounds great that you have friends to help support you. Have a great vacation.
Our 1st year in our new house was marred by loss. It will always play a part in the memories, but I love my house.
I have this little plaque in my kitchen that reads, home is where your story begins. Unfortunatley a tough/sad time has marked the apartment but think about the good days and those to come.
Congrats on the 10 pounds and the upcoming vacation! Smooches ;)
Enjoy vacation!
Enjoy your vacation! It sounds like it's just what you and your husband need. You might even be able to hit your 70 mark while on vacation ;o)
Sending you LOTS of good JUJU for your IUI!
*HUGS/ICLW*
Oooh - your vacation sounds awesome - hope you guys enjoy yourselves! And yay for 10 lbs - that is great!!
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