Updates

Slowly moving forward.

We've been talking, crying, debating, crying and finally know we will be using DS. This decision was not an easy choice for either of us but we think it is the best choice for us and our future family.

Both D and I went through a crazy range of emotions about this and I felt things I never thought I would. We've known about azoo dx since 11/07, we knew DS might be a future option and yet I never thought about how I would feel carrying a baby that was not biologically related to my husband.

We've found DS that we like and is actually the same ethnicity as D, this is very important to me . Let me tell you finding DS that is not Caucasian is very hard. I've reached out to the cyro.bank that has the DS and have gotten a long profile of the donor and also a childhood pic. I'm waiting for a call from one of their counselors to talk about why we are using DS, etc.

I also reached out to my RE and told her about our next steps. She was very supportive and told me to call her with any questions, concerns, etc. She gave me the contact info for the IUI nurse to arrange the DS shipment and we will be doing natural IUI's since I have regular cycles. She also gave me the contact info for the counselor at Corn.ell and we need to meet with her as well to get cleared to do DS.

We also have to option to do the IUI's at the cyro.bank that has the DS, it is also in NYC so we may use that option as well if we need to.

I still have my moments of intense sadness but it is getting better.